Highs and Lows of April 2026

As this month comes to an end, I’ve been sitting with myself, wondering what I want to share with you. I always strive to be real and authentic here, but I’ll be honest, that’s not always easy.

April has been… a lot. More than words can fully hold.

At times, it has felt like a midlife awakening, maybe even a crisis. I’ve felt stretched, crushed, and pulled from different directions in life. And yet, at the same time, I feel grounded and deeply rooted in who I am. It’s a strange place to be feeling both lost and found in the same moment.

There have been so many mental breakthroughs… and just as many tears. Sometimes both at once.

Before I go further, I just want to say thank you for being here, for reading, and for holding space for me. I know many of you care deeply about me, and I don’t want my moments of feeling lost to worry you. I trust myself. I know I will find my way just like I always have.

Earlier this month, my family and I took a trip to Sarasota, Florida for spring break. It felt like a true gift. A gift of simply being without pressure, without worry. For a few days, I lived the life I’ve always dreamed of: 24 hours with my kids, sunshine, warmth, good food, and joy.

Every day felt like a dream. Dolphins and manatees would swim by our balcony as if they came just to say hello. I found myself tearing up, overwhelmed with gratitude, hearing pure joy in my kids’ laughter. In those moments, a quiet voice inside me whispered: "You made it, Jeena.”

One morning, I woke up before sunrise to sit with God, praying for clarity and guidance. But this time… nothing came. No answers. No direction. Just a deep feeling that something big is coming and that I need to trust it. For the first time ever, I came home with my black notebook still blank. That has never happened before. Of course, fear and uncertainty tried to sneak in I won’t lie. But my faith felt stronger. Stronger than the need to control or figure everything out.

For once, I allowed myself to just be present. Not distracted. Not chasing. Just… being.

In my moments of feeling lost,

I find myself asking: Who am I?

What am I becoming?

How do I become the best version of myself?

And even deeper: for whom am I becoming this?

The answer that keeps coming back is: For my kids. For my community. For those who see me as an example even when I don’t have all the answers. Not knowing what’s next is hard. Not fully knowing who I’m meant to become is hard. But I remind myself daily: I am living a good life. I am doing my best with the time and energy I have.

This month also marks the end of my contract as a Business Advisor with MCCD. It has been such a gift to be part of this organization supporting small businesses across Minnesota. I’ve learned that I’m good at this work: listening, understanding, and connecting entrepreneurs to resources that can truly help them grow.

Over the past five years, I’ve shown up to hundreds of events and built meaningful relationships, and I was able to lean on those connections during this time. That reminded me: nothing is wasted.

At home, life has also been stretching us. My husband is going through a transition in his work, and it hasn’t been easy. In this season, I’ve had to step into being the anchor holding hope, paying the bills, and reminding him that he’s not alone. There’s something powerful about being able to say:

"I’ve got you. I want you to be happy. Do what’s best for you.”

But I’ll be honest some days I feel like the best wife, and other days I feel completely lost, unsure of what to say or do.

One night, I asked him: “What kind of wife do you need me to be right now?”

We are navigating it together, one day at a time. And every night, we remind each other: No one in our family is sick. We are alive. We are together. That alone is a blessing.

On April 23rd, I was honored with the Business with Resilience Award. I accepted it with gratitude but also with quiet reflection. Because resilience isn’t just a title, it’s a daily choice to keep going, even when life feels heavy.

Thank you to Elevate Her community for such a beautiful and empowering conference.

The very next day, I attended a volunteer appreciation event for Wish for Seniors. Being recognized and asked to speak about my love for serving seniors and our community meant more than I can express. It’s something I will always treasure.

During all of this, something special happened. My big-hearted friend Jen Bailey reached out and asked, “Should we host a women’s gathering and maybe do a small service project too?” And without overthinking it, we made it happen.

Twelve women came together. We shared yummy food, sparkling drinks, and wine. We laughed, connected, and simply were with one another. And together, we created something meaningful. May flower gifts made with washcloths and toothbrushes for seniors at Roseville Seniors.

It was simple. It was intentional. It was full of heart.

That night reminded me of something I deeply believe: No matter what is happening in life, I will always make space for good moments and for doing good. If there’s one thing I know for sure, it’s that community matters. Gathering matters. Small, meaningful moments matter.

And I would truly love to create more of that with you. If you’re ever interested in hosting a small, meaningful gathering, please reach out. I would love to help you plan something special at Namaste Brows and Boutique.

And just this week, I attended the Minnesota State Fair vendor gathering and orientation. Hearing stories from vendors who have been showing up for 50, 60 even 70+ years made me pause.

It made me ask:

What does consistency really mean?

When do we rest?

What kind of legacy am I building?

That night, I reflected deeply on what I want to leave behind for my children and someday, my grandchildren.

I’m excited to share that Namaste Brows and Boutique will be back at both the Summer Kick-Off and the Minnesota State Fair this year with a new location on the first floor of the Grandstand!

I’m hopeful. I’m praying for growth. They say the third time is the charm, so we’ll see.

This month has been full of emotional highs and lows.

And I find myself wondering…Is it just me? Or am I simply someone who feels deeply, dreams big, and wants to make the most of this life?

I’ll leave you with this: What questions are you asking yourself right now?

May you see the growth that is already blooming from your hard work. May you know your worth fully and deeply.

With love and hope,

Jeena